Its been a while since I blogged here. Part of the reason is cos I have been trying to get on with my life post treatment, just doing the mundane things in life without obsessing or cleaning.
Part of me feels sad that I no longer have that weekly session of CBT. Yes it was hard at first and there have been backwards steps, I didn't honestly think it would work to begin with. But it has, so armed with my list of Dos and Don'ts and triggers I have begun the process of being a normal person. Take today for instance, I left the house without handgel, ate in a local cafe and got pooped on by a seagull (I kid you not), and I survived.
I now feel confident enough to make the move down south in a few months, something that would have seemed unthinkable this time last year. I know there will be trials to face, not least a new house and the urge to clean it, as well as a new job and new people to meet (always a stressful situation that, and one that triggers the obsessions and the anxiety).
From next week I shall start writing about....well I haven't really decided yet...inspiration awaits.
The Ladybird
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